in- retrospect

in-              retrospect
you apologise

an afterthought

a careless hurt
atoned by
a toolatesorry.

make my heart go
pitterpatter
thudthud

butterflies
in my stomach
turn into

the monsters

that haunt my dreams

in-             retrospect
you are all you
ever should be

my brain's a blur
with a thousand thoughts of
meandyou

you try so hard
to get into my good books

and then

run away

in-             retrospect....

i still
don't know
what to think.