"I don't think that being a strong person is about ignoring your emotions and fighting your feelings. Putting on a brave face doesn't mean you're a brave person. That's why everybody in my life knows everything that I'm going through. I can't hide anything from them. People need to realise that being open isn't the same as being weak."

- Taylor Swift

Friday, April 18, 2014

tabula rasa

I am always a little afraid
That you will be his ghost

Forgive me
You are your own person
And I should not compare anyone
To a monster

Much less you, my friend.

It's not that he is a part of you
He is a part of me
A festering wound
A gnarled, ugly scar

And I am afraid that with every embrace
Skin on skin
Breath on breath
A little poison will bleed from me to you
And then back to me, ever more potently

But as summer yields to winter
I yield, too
To reckless faith.

for Ben.