"I don't think that being a strong person is about ignoring your emotions and fighting your feelings. Putting on a brave face doesn't mean you're a brave person. That's why everybody in my life knows everything that I'm going through. I can't hide anything from them. People need to realise that being open isn't the same as being weak."

- Taylor Swift

Wednesday, June 19, 2013

Scraps of Time

I live my life in scraps of time
A life of tepid baths and cold tea, of 
Coffee drunk alone
In the noisy silence of solitude

And my knight errant, come too late to save me 
From swallowing my bitterness of a life too short
Yet already so long

You made a warrior of a worrier
But I still have the wearied nostalgia
Of ransomed squires
And demoiselles en détresse

You hear the nightingale
And claim it for a lark 
You have only ever given me your scraps of time

But caught in your arms
Without permission, without volition
In your scraps of time we are almost one
Jagged breath and warm blood
Scattered staccato hearts

It is the only time you are ever mine
With eyes meeting
Lips almost touching

I see her everywhere
Always ready to remind me
Not of your love
But the love of all those 
You told me, in secret, you detest

It is no secret that they detest me

If only I could see you in worthy arms
If only those arms were mine

I am first and last
Of the thousand things on your mind
First and last in your heart 

I live my life in scraps of time
Yours, and hers, and mine. 

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