Brother.

Am I such an open book, brother?
Am I so hard to love?

I used to watch the pair of you
Blood brothers
Thick as thieves

And he was as much my ear
As you are now

What have I done to make him think so badly of me?

I will not apologise
And beg forgiveness

I have done nothing wrong
But I

I have lost a brother
And it kills me.

Am I such an open book, brother?
Am I so hard to love?

All my other brothers have
Let me down

Heartbreakers and traitors and
Ashes buried in the ground

It is too much that they begrudge me
One pair of arms around me

One person on this ungodly earth
To hold me as I fall.

Am I such an open book, brother?
Am I so hard to love?

And why you are so angry
At those who hurt me
Is beyond me

When you hurt me beyond belief
Every word you say is a dagger in me
Every breath I take is fire and dust

Where is your strength?
Where is your honour?
Where is your love for me?

Am I such an open book, brother?
Am I so hard to love?

Forgive me, brother
I do not mean to sound ungrateful

Forgive me my insecurities, brother

Without me
Your world will go on turning
A world that's full of happiness that I have never known

Forgive me
If this makes me just a little afraid.