Green Light

I can see the green light

I can see it in your eyes

I can see the green light

I can see it in your eyes

Across the harbour

A drop in the rivers of 

Fear and insecurity

You're a hard soul to save

With an ocean in the way 

Why...

I smell like my mother

Coffee and mothballs but

I don't feel like her

I don't have her strength

Fifty years of children and weariness

I don't have that

But 

I still feel

Broken

You used to be so

So warm 

My mirror, my sword, my shield

I crawled into your open arms

And cried

Why...

We keep up this charade

As if people care about us, and not just you

I know you're trying to teach me

To be forgiving

But I don't know if you're merciful

Or

Forgetful

I'm a writer, my dear

I cannot forget anything

Memories are pennies

And I am a woman.

I must earn my keep. 

Trust is stronger than love,

Thicker than blood

But so easily lost (never, I fear, to return?)

And so often

Taken for granted

I have heard it all, seen it all

I try to believe you, but not today

They were like chocolate

Warm, and sweet

Soft, and forgiving

Trusting, and understanding

Cloying and just out of reach

But now I can see

I can see you

I can see it

Inviting and sinister

A remembrance of a time and place

That, I think, only exists in my heart

A reminder of all that is not mine 

I can see the green light

I can see it in your eyes

I can see the green light

I can see it in your eyes 

Inspired by Over the Love by Florence + The Machine

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