Battlelines.

Do I still love you?
I cannot bear the thought of you getting hurt
I wish you would look after yourself
A little better, for me
Anything for me
I am only at peace when I know in my heart you are safe and sound 
If you were to break down I would fix you
Put you back together brick by boring brick
Do I still love you?
I hate it when you do that
I have hated you so much I would have smiled if you were dead at my feet
Sometimes
For every smile you have put on my face I can count a thousand thousand tears
Do I still love you?
Sometimes you disgust me
Sometimes I can smell you on me
Lingering long after you leave too early
You do things and say things
That would shatter any childish illusions
Is love unconditional or just stupid?
Do I still love you?
Your face always falls when I agree with you
I am not someone who will tell you what you want to hear
But I'm not your honest friend, either 
I don't know what I am to you
Everything you give you take back
Everything you give you take back
Everything you give you take back
And I'm breaking down
I'm breaking down
Breaking down
Breaking
Down
Do I still love you?
It doesn't feel good or right
Blood pouring freely from an opened vein
I live on memories and vague touch
And you bleed me dry 
If you were to live on blood and tears you would survive
If you're homesick give me your hand and I'll hold it
Do I still love you?
I hate it 
I HATE IT WHEN YOU TALK OF
No
I will smile for you
How are we friends when I hide so much from you?
How am I to move on?
I'm trapped as you are and your cage is more gilded than mine
Who will want me now?
Who will want me when I'm yours and not yours and
And
And
Me?
That's the problem
It's not you, it's me
Your predecessor said that
I cut him down and cried and cried
But something stays my hand
And I cannot abandon you even if you abandon me
It is not honour
There is no honour left
Do I still love you?
Sometimes you are my dearest friend
You stand with me and hold my hand through anything
You are the last man standing, the last man smiling 
But sometimes you're just one of them
The straw that broke the camel's back
Why have I found no one like you?
Nobody as good as you
Nobody as bad as you
Is that why we stay?
Are we exotic?
The prince and the freak
What an odd couple we are
I don't need a tiger on a gold leash
I just need you to hold me
I just need you to be there and smile
Tell me everything will be okay
You do that sometimes, but not all the time
Ghostly rings with no reply
In my mind you are so different to what you really are
This was your idea, you know
Whatever this is, this is your arson
Your creation
Your fault 

Did I ever love you?
Did you ever love me back?
I don't speak of
I don't mean
When I say that I
I hope you understand
We have walked forbidden roads before
But it is no crime to say it now
But if you don't want to well then
Well then
That
I guess
Would be alright 
I don't feel alright because you make promises that you break
Did I ever love you?
Actions speak louder than words
We are what we do, not what we say
And that is a lot, from me

Do I still love you?
Did I ever love you?
I know you don't love me. 
You said it once, but 
I have learned not to believe what you say.