What We've Become

It's been a long time
Since you smiled at me,
Sometimes I find myself missing you.
It's been a long time,
Since I laughed with you,
Before you made everyone laugh at me.

And so here we are,
Smiling over what made me cry,
We gotta put our poker faces on, you know why.
I know you've gotta be a man to your mates,
And even though I'm a girl I don't get much of a leeway.
The schoolyard is not a place to breakdown,
Even though it's such an emotional battleground.
I don't like what we've become,
If we could start over again what would you have done?

You say something cruel to me,
I smile, try to take it lightly,
I like to think that you wouldn't if you didn't have to.
I counter all your mean remarks,
I know my words are like knives and they'll leave a scar,
But no matter why you fight I've still got to fight back.

And so here we are,
Trying to make each other cry,
We gotta put our poker faces on, you know why.
I know you've gotta be a man to your mates,
And part of the job description is heartbreak.
The schoolyard is not a place to breakdown,
Even though it's such an emotional battleground.
I don't like what we've become,
But I don't know what else I could have done.

It's so sad you still know how to be so cold,
I wonder what happened to my little boy,
I guess he got tougher as he grew old.
We're still connected by a thread we try to break.
Because no matter what we do,
We're still bound by what we went through,
And my only comfort is that no matter how bitter we are,
There was once a time when we had fun.

And so here we are,
Smiling over what made me cry,
We gotta put our poker faces on, you know why.
I know you've gotta be a man to your mates,
And even though I'm a girl I don't get much of a leeway.
The schoolyard is not a place to breakdown,
Even though it's such an emotional battleground.
I don't like what we've become,
If we could start over again what would you have done?

And so here we are,
Trying to make each other cry,
We gotta put our poker faces on, you know why.
I know you've gotta be a man to your mates,
And part of the job description is heartbreak.
The schoolyard is not a place to breakdown,
Even though it's such an emotional battleground.
I don't like what we've become,
But I don't know what else I could have done.

There was a time of innocence,
Do you remember that?
I think this is too high a price to pay for a few moments of joy.
We've become so cold now,
Forever trying to stab each other's backs.
Do you remember when we used to be friends?
Can you remember that,
Before we became this?

And so here we are,
So childish it makes me cry,
They ask too much of us, I don't know why.
I know you've gotta be a man to your mates,
You've got to paint me as the bitch who got it her way.
I still think what happened was unfair,
But I know I can't change what happened whilst we still have to pretend we don't care.
I don't like what we've become,
If we could start over again what would you have done?

Do you know what we've become?
If you knew this was how it was going to end what would you have done?
I'd like to think you just made some stupid mistakes,
And this is the price I have to pay for your ridiculously high stakes.
I don't like what we've come,
But I don't know what else I could have done.