"I don't think that being a strong person is about ignoring your emotions and fighting your feelings. Putting on a brave face doesn't mean you're a brave person. That's why everybody in my life knows everything that I'm going through. I can't hide anything from them. People need to realise that being open isn't the same as being weak."

- Taylor Swift

Saturday, December 13, 2008

(Don't) Kiss My Ass.

I hate it when boys don't look at my face, my mind, my brain, my soul, my heart. They just look at my body.

Okay, I don't pretend to have a supermodel body. But, I am older than most kids in my grade, being a February baby, so my body is more...developed than the others. My hourglass. My boobs. My bum. My stomach is starting to flatten.

But seriously, is that all boys care about? Can they just love me, and not my booty?

I catch boys checking me out all the time. It's really sick. It makes me feel so cheap, like some call girl or something. It's so degrading that boys just look at me for what I look like, not for who I am.

And I'm not even pretty. They don't look at my face. Or my legs, because they're so horribly scarred.

I'm just an object to them, empty and eye candy. Not a girl, not a being, not a soul.

19 comments:

La Pianista said...

Wow. Ick.

Same here, hon, same here. Next time you catch 'em, do something really gross. Pick your nose or something. :P

Anonymous said...

Sometimes, being born in December is great.
C.S

La Pianista said...

And...

Sorry, but really big LOL moment here: You're twelve?! Sure? I still deal with that stuff at my age, only a couple of years from college.

And, C.S. - being born in November is great. :)

Anonymous said...

Yeah, but being 11 sucks.
C.S

La Pianista said...

And more...to leach off your blog as these thoughts/memories come. ;)

Like that asinine kid I mentioned in one of your earlier posts. When he looks at me, it's like I don't have a face! I mean, if he even remotely valued me as a sentient human, not some "love-object," he'd at least notice my head.

But, like you said, it's all boobs, torso, butt, boobs, torso, butt, and then lingering at boobs for like fifteen minutes. I don't wear shorts and low-cuts anymore when I go out.

Makes one feel like a trinket, to quote you, "eye candy", more than a person with a functioning brain. -_-

Ugh. Sorry for rambling - okay with you guys? :)

La Pianista said...

@ CS:

Being 11 did suck, big time, when I was that age. Now, edging on towards college sucks. Even bigger time.

Anonymous said...

Can you stop making me freaked out about my 12th B'day?
And, L.R, will you please write something else on your private blog?
It's like a whole blog for a certain something.
C.S

La Pianista said...

Don't worry - when you're twelve, you'll get freaked out about your thirteenth. ;)

And, LR, could you please let us comment? I gave you the link earlier, in one of your other posts here, remember?

Anonymous said...

hey guys!

okay, i wrote something really long, but i accidentally wrote C.S's real name so i deleted it. can't be bothered repeating it, so i'll cut it short:

i refuse to bundle up or be gross just to detract attention. that just feels like losing, giving up.

c.s, being eleven is bad but being twelve is probably not much better, trust me.

Anonymous said...

oh, and la pianista, i looked up the whole commenty thingy on my other blog and came up empty. sorry.

i'll keep trying.

Anonymous said...

I don't mind if you write my real name, just not my last name, because my name technically isn't my 'real' name because I'm asian and no one can pronounce my name properly without annoying me to bits.Before I confuse anyone...
O.K, here it is.
Just to make it more dramatic, scroll down.
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IIIT's
CAITLIN!!
Lol!
C.S

Anonymous said...

Oh, and LR, I think you have to make a google account to comment.
If you do, then I really don't know.
C.S

Anonymous said...

oops, I meant LP

La Pianista said...

I do have an account. Click my screen name, and my profile will show up.

LR, I've found out how - see

http://help.blogger.com/bin/answer.py?hl=en&answer=41440

Morgapedia said...

Hey, my b-day is in February too (the 20th)!!! I'm 13, and all that crap goes on here too. It sucks.

PS I'm sorry I haven't been around in a while, my computer's been being stupid.

Anonymous said...

hey doin'huh and la pianista;

i would add you to my blog author thingy but i would prefer it if you only commented, and not actually posted stuff on it. if you could assure me of that, then i'll add you as an author right away.

nice to hear from you, doin'huh.

La Pianista said...

I know, LR, but that's the only way I can comment.

Unless, of course, you want to change your commenting preferences so they won't be so strict.

Morgapedia said...

Yeah. I solemnly swear to not post on your other blog, only to comment. *right hand on heart*. LOL, but seriously, I won't. THX!!!!

La Pianista said...

A great many thanks from me, too, LR. If this were Wikipedia, I'd give you a {{subst:hug}} ;)