I hate it when boys don't look at my face, my mind, my brain, my soul, my heart. They just look at my body.
Okay, I don't pretend to have a supermodel body. But, I am older than most kids in my grade, being a February baby, so my body is more...developed than the others. My hourglass. My boobs. My bum. My stomach is starting to flatten.
But seriously, is that all boys care about? Can they just love me, and not my booty?
I catch boys checking me out all the time. It's really sick. It makes me feel so cheap, like some call girl or something. It's so degrading that boys just look at me for what I look like, not for who I am.
And I'm not even pretty. They don't look at my face. Or my legs, because they're so horribly scarred.
I'm just an object to them, empty and eye candy. Not a girl, not a being, not a soul.
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Wow. Ick.
Same here, hon, same here. Next time you catch 'em, do something really gross. Pick your nose or something. :P
Sometimes, being born in December is great.
C.S
And...
Sorry, but really big LOL moment here: You're twelve?! Sure? I still deal with that stuff at my age, only a couple of years from college.
And, C.S. - being born in November is great. :)
Yeah, but being 11 sucks.
C.S
And more...to leach off your blog as these thoughts/memories come. ;)
Like that asinine kid I mentioned in one of your earlier posts. When he looks at me, it's like I don't have a face! I mean, if he even remotely valued me as a sentient human, not some "love-object," he'd at least notice my head.
But, like you said, it's all boobs, torso, butt, boobs, torso, butt, and then lingering at boobs for like fifteen minutes. I don't wear shorts and low-cuts anymore when I go out.
Makes one feel like a trinket, to quote you, "eye candy", more than a person with a functioning brain. -_-
Ugh. Sorry for rambling - okay with you guys? :)
@ CS:
Being 11 did suck, big time, when I was that age. Now, edging on towards college sucks. Even bigger time.
Can you stop making me freaked out about my 12th B'day?
And, L.R, will you please write something else on your private blog?
It's like a whole blog for a certain something.
C.S
Don't worry - when you're twelve, you'll get freaked out about your thirteenth. ;)
And, LR, could you please let us comment? I gave you the link earlier, in one of your other posts here, remember?
hey guys!
okay, i wrote something really long, but i accidentally wrote C.S's real name so i deleted it. can't be bothered repeating it, so i'll cut it short:
i refuse to bundle up or be gross just to detract attention. that just feels like losing, giving up.
c.s, being eleven is bad but being twelve is probably not much better, trust me.
oh, and la pianista, i looked up the whole commenty thingy on my other blog and came up empty. sorry.
i'll keep trying.
I don't mind if you write my real name, just not my last name, because my name technically isn't my 'real' name because I'm asian and no one can pronounce my name properly without annoying me to bits.Before I confuse anyone...
O.K, here it is.
Just to make it more dramatic, scroll down.
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CAITLIN!!
Lol!
C.S
Oh, and LR, I think you have to make a google account to comment.
If you do, then I really don't know.
C.S
oops, I meant LP
I do have an account. Click my screen name, and my profile will show up.
LR, I've found out how - see
http://help.blogger.com/bin/answer.py?hl=en&answer=41440
Hey, my b-day is in February too (the 20th)!!! I'm 13, and all that crap goes on here too. It sucks.
PS I'm sorry I haven't been around in a while, my computer's been being stupid.
hey doin'huh and la pianista;
i would add you to my blog author thingy but i would prefer it if you only commented, and not actually posted stuff on it. if you could assure me of that, then i'll add you as an author right away.
nice to hear from you, doin'huh.
I know, LR, but that's the only way I can comment.
Unless, of course, you want to change your commenting preferences so they won't be so strict.
Yeah. I solemnly swear to not post on your other blog, only to comment. *right hand on heart*. LOL, but seriously, I won't. THX!!!!
A great many thanks from me, too, LR. If this were Wikipedia, I'd give you a {{subst:hug}} ;)
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