"I don't think that being a strong person is about ignoring your emotions and fighting your feelings. Putting on a brave face doesn't mean you're a brave person. That's why everybody in my life knows everything that I'm going through. I can't hide anything from them. People need to realise that being open isn't the same as being weak."

- Taylor Swift

Thursday, February 16, 2012


I don't really want you to know
That sometimes I sit
And watch
And wait
For the numbers to flip
From seventoeight.

You have become my
Tom Riddle's diary
I don't want to be
With or without you.

Just now
I had the most horrifying image.

I saw myself sitting
All alone
In a
Cupping in my hands
A mug of tea.
I'm watching something you don't like
And even though I'm "home"
I've done my hair the way you like.

You finally walk through the door at
Back from people who don't
Scare you like I do. 

And I press "pause" in the middle of the best part
Ready to become a heavily edited
fine tuned
watered down version

of the passion and sordid fantasies
I keep hidden inside. 

And just when I think we've become teenagers again
With our

And that you're laughing too much in your

I look back and realize

When I was sixteen I said you were a shadow of what you really are.

And when I was sixteen I swore I would never turn my back on

So I don't know...

I don't see...

I don't think
I should spend
Watching the numbers flip
From seventoeight.

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